Close your eyes and imagine.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Happiness. The thing that I always seek. In some point of my life I've realized that happiness become selfishness. Selfishness means thinking only for yourself - without considering everyone around. I always want to understand all the people around me, I always want to know what they think about me. I want to be understood, I want to understand everybody. Our home - our house. This is the place where we find comfort. The true attitudes are seen at the house but our's is typically noisy and half filled with anger. There are times that we can't understand each other but I always assure that at the end of the day I must understand them.
I want to do so many things. I want a happy family. A complete,transparent,faithful,understanding, tightly bonded family that eats together, go out together, pray together, laugh together and solve problems together. I always want to say "I Love You" with my mom, but shame and fear is always with me. I must learn to be confident and fearless because God is always with as long as I do what is right.
At this moment I want to shout everything that is in my mind. I want to open all the feelings that were buried by time. My dreams, my future . I must work hard to have a good one.
Obedience, Righteousness, Faith, Love....Seeking.... Interest...Family...Everything... are the random words in my mind. Life is finding, learning, understanding, listening, laughing, smiling, ..... and reaching for the LIGHT.
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With all the guts of publishing this written work of mine.
This is a result of free writing without any topic in a state where my mind is in realization.
I really don't like to post this kind of written work but with this one I must. As I mention above "I must learn to be confident and fearless".
So byebye pride.. hello humbleness...
Thank you so much for the giving me motivation and strength. For that here's my big <3.
God speed!
I wrote this without considering about grammar, coherence and unity. It is the thoughts in my mind that time. Nothing more nothing less.
Its like you were in the middle of something and someone ask you to close your eyes and realize. Right after opening your eyes your were given pen and paper and ask to write everything that will pop out to your minds for 5 minutes. NO STOP.